I came up with this quote recently (though don't know if i have heard it before), and the weirdest thing is it just popped into my mind...." I'm so scared of dying alone that it has become my reality".... So someone please tell me why that thought popped into my mind when the choice of remaining alone for the rest of my life is a conscious one. The thought of living alone fascinates me and the thought of not being found 2-3 days after i have died also does... i can just visualise the scenario when the stench of my decaying flesh is the only clue that tells people i am dead. Sorry for the morbid thoughts but somehow whenever i see mad men and i see john hamms brilliant portrayal of don draper i show i feel i am going to end up like that (without all the sex with the hot chicks and definitely without all the booze!!!). The show somehow has the ability to excite me with its brilliance and the same time get me into a really morbid frame of mind. Another brilliant show Dexter has the same effect on me though for completely different reasons (check out both shows if u are reading this.... u wont be dissapointed....note of warning : if u cant identify with what i have written then dont watch mad men it might be slow for u).
Another thing i thought of is, people keep saying that every time a door is closed god opens a door for you. What if the door is the one on your coffin? Is heaven supposed to be the door god opens for u? Or in my case is it hell??? and what if u dont believe in either ... In my case if the coffin door did open either it should have been onto the sets of thriller or atleast into the path of sarah michelle gellar in all her buffy glory. Wouldnt mind getting killed by her all over again....
Guess have run out of morbid things to write abt too... as i ended the last para with the thought of sarah michelle gellar(no way she can ever be a morbid thought) so will leave my audience (even if it is only 1 person) with a question : ' which is more important a shoulder to cry on when u are alive or a shoulder to carry u when u are dead' Ponder on that.....p.s. had to end it on a morbid note.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
3 months done, Did i have Fun?
3 months done so am i having fun???? i would have to say YES!!! Teaching turns out to be something that i like and the challenge is always there.... the search for the gleam in a kids eyes when they actually get what u are explaining.... Initial hiccups are obvious; that being nervousness which manifests itself as speed reading and the kids just feel as though they were dodging a bunch of bouncers from Lee. But as they say practice makes perfect and have been trying to slow down so that i can reach the kids... Its a work in progress and hopefully some day i will be having a beautiful mind moment of my own (not the madness to cynics out there !, the scene where he gets pens from everyone).
As to the subject, actually love it now. The quote absence makes the heart grow fonder is pretty tru, 7 years away from anat have made me like the subject much better now. What i end up doing with the subject and how good/bad teacher i turn out to be only time will tell...
Im always in awe of the teachers who can integrate humor (no aqueous/vitreous jokes please) into a lecture to keep everyone awake atleast.... somehow my otherwise humorous mind (i know lot of u despise my 'cheap' jokes, but theres always someone who laughs) deserts me when i am teaching... I guess that too is an acquired talent and as i become confident with the subject maybe other part of my brain will kick in.
Raichur on the other hand will still take some adjusting to do... have not dealt with the summer yet so cant say i have adjusted to Raichur yet. But something i realised ONLY LAST YEAR is that if u dont make lemonade out the lemons life gives you ull end up with spoilt lemons (wat else???).. Making the best of your circumstances is pretty hard to do but striving to maximise what is there... In the greed of trying to be as successful as someone else people forget that there is always someone who is striving to be who you are. I guess thats the twist of life. Ambition isnt bad but not at the cost of everything else in life.
Pretty much run out of word on this post and need to right a somber post too so p.s. i love you...(hate the movie but been hearing the title a lot so thought would use it.
As to the subject, actually love it now. The quote absence makes the heart grow fonder is pretty tru, 7 years away from anat have made me like the subject much better now. What i end up doing with the subject and how good/bad teacher i turn out to be only time will tell...
Im always in awe of the teachers who can integrate humor (no aqueous/vitreous jokes please) into a lecture to keep everyone awake atleast.... somehow my otherwise humorous mind (i know lot of u despise my 'cheap' jokes, but theres always someone who laughs) deserts me when i am teaching... I guess that too is an acquired talent and as i become confident with the subject maybe other part of my brain will kick in.
Raichur on the other hand will still take some adjusting to do... have not dealt with the summer yet so cant say i have adjusted to Raichur yet. But something i realised ONLY LAST YEAR is that if u dont make lemonade out the lemons life gives you ull end up with spoilt lemons (wat else???).. Making the best of your circumstances is pretty hard to do but striving to maximise what is there... In the greed of trying to be as successful as someone else people forget that there is always someone who is striving to be who you are. I guess thats the twist of life. Ambition isnt bad but not at the cost of everything else in life.
Pretty much run out of word on this post and need to right a somber post too so p.s. i love you...(hate the movie but been hearing the title a lot so thought would use it.
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